Thursday, January 22, 2009

Strike two

I did not get the puppy. :( I knew it wasn't good when I hadn't heard from the foster mom even by 10pm. I checked my work email after I got home from the department dinner, and saw that the potential adopter was apparently able to convince her husband to take the puppy.

I know there are plenty of dogs in shelters that need good homes, but I am wondering if the universe is trying to tell me something. This is the second dog I have tried to adopt that has fallen through. Both times they just came to me, crossed my path, fell into my lap, so I thought it was meant to be. Perhaps I should take heed that neither adoption panned out. I do have enormous anxiety over how Comet will react to a dog. He is my baby. We are best buds. He is not like the average cat. He is waiting for me at the door when I get home. He follows me up and down the stairs. We cuddle in the mornings. If I am sitting, he is on my lap. If I am lying down, he is right next to me or even on top of me. I love him more than is healthy, and I'm afraid if I get a dog he will change. He will hide all the time. He will be scared and mad at me and hold a grudge and feel betrayed and ignored. But when I see dogs, my heart aches for one. I want to take my dog to dog parks, and for car rides, and to bagels, and to the flea market. I heard of a restaurant that allows dogs on Sunday afternoons. How great is that?! For these past two adoption attempts, I have talked myself into taking the plunge, and then when they don't come to pass, part of me is hugely disappointed, but part of me is also hugely relieved.

I think the best thing for now, since my ambivalence is so strong, is to wait. I think I remember saying that last time. Perhaps if and when I am truly ready, the right doggie will come along.


  1. Kim says that if you lived close by you could come pick up Ellie and take her for a car ride and to bagels. Ellie would love that !!!!

  2. Yeah, I think it's best for Comet to not have a dog around. I'd love a dog but, apart from the fact that it wouldn't be fair to a dog because I don't have the space, it wouldn't be fair to my cats. Maybe if they were younger, but not now.

    BTW, "average cat"? I don't think there is one. I think you get out of it what you put into it. If people think cats are aloof, then they will be. But I interact a lot with my cats (probably too much for their liking at times!) and they're really sociable, love company, wait at the door for me, Kody comes running into the bedroom at night when he realizes I'm going to bed so he can get in some cuddling buds is right!